Sickness and exhaustion from my toddler’s nighttime antics have descended and taken over everything. My brain emits nothing more than a faint hum, reminiscent of the white noise that used to be produced by television sets before they commenced on their eternal entertainment existence.
I’m in no doubt how closely linked my mind, body and essence (soul? Spirit?) are. Rolling in negative thoughts quickly slows my mood, practising good principles of living (kindness, patience, love, self care) creates a lightness I feel from the very centre of my body. And physical exhaustion and sickness dull my senses, both physical and emotional, until I feel that everything’s under deep, dark water — heavy, weighed down and isolated.
The solution’s as immutable as the problem. Each day needs to be created from scratch: self care, refusing any nonessential activities, accepting any and all offers of help (a particularly difficult one for me), meditating both in company and alone, being useful to others to help distract myself, remembering that my thinking is compromised when exhausted, and the most important rule to follow is not to take myself so damn seriously… And repeat… And repeat…
It passes. It always passes. Sickness will fade and my son will sleep. And even in these days there are long moments of laughter and light — always as a result of time spent with others; particularly with those I’m coming to cherish as I risk opening my heart to the world.
Meals like this are perfect for these days. Pan roasted pumpkin with chilli and garlic is offset by a gentle, creamy goats cheese and tossed through pasta. It’s incredibly simple, while offering flavours that both comfort and dance. I sometimes squeeze sausages out of their skins into little balls and add to the pumpkin for the last few minutes of cooking. In other seasons, I exchange the pumpkin for zucchini and cook for half the time. Use the recipe as suits you best. I know I do.
Enjoy.
- 800g pumpkin
- 30g unsalted butter
- 1 tsp olive oil
- 1 – 2 cloves of garlic finely chopped, to taste
- ½ – 1 chilli finely chopped, to taste
- 400g spaghetti
- 4 tbl sp soft goat’s cheese (I use Meredith Dairy’s goat cheese infused in olive oil, but any soft goat cheese will do)
Chop the pumpkin into bite sized pieces, (very) roughly 1.5cm squared
Melt the butter and olive oil in a frying pan
Add the pumpkin, garlic and chilli and cook, covered, over a medium low heat for 10 minutes
Turn the pumpkin and cook for another 10 minutes, until golden and tender when poked with a fork
In the meantime, cook your pasta according to the packet instructions
Place a tablespoon of goats cheese per person into the bottom of each bowl
Drain the pasta and mix into the goats cheese
Add the cooked pumpkin to each bowl and serve
Great word’s…but I still struggle with the self care …any tips 😨 other than the garlic & chilli the pasta sounds & definitely looks sensational 🐾💚💖
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Thanks Jan-Maree! I wish I was wise and able to offer more useful tips. The ones in this post work for me, although I only found them after much trial and error in other areas. I guess what I continue to do is: keep an open mind to trying anything, make lots of mistakes and keep practising! Hope you’re well, lovely to hear from you. x
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Double snap with the Meredith Goats cheese, whazzup with that? This sounds yummy, pumpkin and goats cheese are a match made in heaven. A good salve to the soul of amtired and hungry mumma nursing a sick wee one. At times like that, although I tell myself ‘this too shall pass’ it can feel a bit like wading through mud. Thank goodness for great food!
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I know! Check us out getting our matching produce on… Your tart looked absolutely delicious this week. An easy and tasty meal is definitely a salve to such exhaustion, and thank goodness these times do pass; although generally once I’ve become a bit self pitying and not a lot of fun to be around!
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Looks delicious. My sister gave birth to her first child in July and is finding caring for a little one very tiring at the moment. I visited a friend in Ireland who has two little boys and one of them loved to wake the family up about 5am in the morning. Then when everyone was totally exhausted he would retire to the sofa about 11am for a 2 hr nap. I am sure it will get better soon. Take care of yourself. Emma.
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Thankfully it’s a pretty universal experience for parents, so there are lots of people who understand the brain dead life of mothers with young children! My boy wakes around the same time as your friend in Ireland’s boy, he’s just stopped day sleeps as well so pretty much runs rampant from dawn until dusk, and then barely sleeps at night! Good thing he’s so adorable or I’d be ebaying him for sure… Hope you’re well.
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Sleep. The need is always so underestimated. You’ll be like, “no, I got this, I can get this and this done. There’s still time.”
Then you crash and you’re like “WT FFFFF!?!”
Thank you for taking even more time out of your sleepless day to give us this. I hope things calm down a bit for you.
Cuz you know if we were closer I’d be there to help 🙂
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YES! I think I’m doing just fine until I leave my car keys in the fridge and tip my coffee into the dishwasher instead of soap. And then I start crying at really stupid television adverts for mobile phones or life insurance and have a moment when I think, “maybe I’m quite tired…”
You rock Dana, if you were closer I’d be coming over for your shellfish and company for sure. I’d take rollicking laughter over sleep any day! x
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I’m sorry you’re sick! Not feeling well + young child in the house = recipe for exhaustion. I’ve found that it takes me a bit longer to rebound from an illness or a sleepless night much longer than it used to. The pasta sounds delicious, though. Sending good health vibes your way!
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Yay Sara! So lovely to see you on here again. Luckily we’re rebounding this week but it was pretty hairy for a few days. Just saw you have a new post as well, looking forward to my read!
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I made a variation of this tonight (orzo instead of spaghetti, brown butter and sage instead of chile). It was wonderful. Thanks for the inspiration.
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I took a picture for you:
If I were a food blogger, I’d fret about my uneven knife cuts, but since I’m not, I won’t.
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I love this! And I think this dish insists on uneven knife cuts… it’s for those evenings when nothing should be taken seriously. I love the variation you’ve made with the orzo, brown butter and sage – it looks absolutely delicious. Thanks so much for taking the time to post a photo, you’ve made my day!
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You are so gracious. Like.
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